These days...

Life has me whirling around like a tumultuous hurricane...never really knowing where it's going or when it's getting there. I am getting so burnt out with this emotional rollercoaster (otherwise known as the military). Anyone who knows me, knows I am a planner...I have to plan in advance what day I am going to go grocery shopping and I have a whole plan written out for me as to which stores I hit in which order and all their respective lists to go with....I am quite anal! So no matter how much I try and convince myself that I am getting used to being told one thing and then being told the total opposite thing 2 days later.... I'M NOT!!! And every time, just like the last....my hopes and dreams for the future are crushed and I have to start planning from square one again.

Now we are to the point of "either we are getting out or we are staying in if i make chief or if i get picked up for this other job" and "if we do end up getting out maybe we should live here....no no...we are moving back home". Before Christmas came, I was planning on us re-enlisting, i was planning on us buying a house here....We were finally going to get our very own house...finally going to put down some roots....It's just frustrating....I don't know where we will be or what we will be doing in six months....it's unnerving, and actually quite frightening! How do I get through the days not thinking about this anymore? How much longer is this going to go on?
Tired...

Quotes

So I was cruising through a bunch of different sites this morning and found this place that does picture frames with hand carved quotes within the frame...they are totally cute, but I am not about to pay $250. for them....(that is NOT a typo)...But the quotes I came across were sweet and full of love and inspiration, so I share some of those now....

** All that I am, or hope to be, I owe to my angel mother - Abraham Lincoln

** Before you were conceived, I wanted you. Before you were born, I loved you. Before you were here an hour I would die for you. This is the miracle of love. - Maureen Hawkins

** Here's to tall ships. Here's to small ships. Here's to all the ships on the sea. But the best ships are friendships...Here's to you and me. - Old Maritime Blessing

** I carry your heart with me ( I carry it in my heart) I am never without it ( anywhere i go you go, my dear). e.e. cummings

** I love thee, I love thee with a love that shall not die. Till the sun grows cold and the stars grow old. - Williams Shakespeare

** If there is anything half so much fun as being alive, I'd like to know what it is. - Frederick Buechner

** May soft be the grass you walk on, May fair be the skies above you, M may true be the joys that surround you, may dear be the hearts that love you. - Old Irish Blessing

** May the road rise up to meet you. May the wind always be at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face, and rains fall soft upon your fields. And until we meet again, May God hold you in the palm of his hand. - Old Irish Blessing

** To get the full value of joy, you must have someone to divide it with. - Mark Twain

** Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the one's you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the tradewinds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. - Mark Twain

** We are each of us angels with only one wing. And we can only fly by embracing eachother. - Luciano De Creschenzo

** You are the poem I dreamed of writing, the masterpiece I longed to paint. You are the shining star I reached for in my ever hopeful quest for life fulfilled. You are my child, Now with all things I am blessed. - Unknown

** Death is more universal than life; everyone dies, but not everyone lives - Alan Sachs

** Choose a job you love and you will never have to work a day in your life.

Worry not that no one knows of you; seek to be worth knowing. - Confucius

** A true friend stabs you in the front.

Be yourself; everyone else is already taken. - Oscar Wilde


Hope you enjoyed these as much as I did...I could go on all day, but I don't think J would appreciate that much. Maybe there will be more to come??....

Incomprehensible

So...I just got off the phone with an old friend...and I am just dumb-struck....Here I answer the phone in a "happy to hear your voice" manner and she starts in with her week...and I feel like an utter ass!! And so i share a modest account of what has happened to her...

She works at a fairly well known company .... and she proceeds to tell me that a girl that she knew was shot and killed by her boyfriend in the parking lot of said company as she was going into work....and not just shot in the leg, or the foot, or even the arm....shot in the head multiple times and then in the chest multiple times (as if the head wasn't quite good enough to get the job done). And here is what gets me....said company just wants everyone to go back to normal like nothing ever happened! First of all that is just insane....and how rude for the dearly departed!!

So anyways...I just can't imagine this or anything like it happening to me or around me...and I wonder if I am just a little too optimistic for my own good...And I feel I should have something meaningful or enlightening to tell her in the wake of all this aftermath that lies ahead....but I don't. So my question is this....Has something of this horrendous nature ever happened to you?? Or someone you knew very well??? And how would you handle said situation if ever you find yourself in my shoes...or hers? I just can't begin to comprehend the thoughts and emotions that one might run through....it's quite unnerving....